What are you Most passionate about?

Where does your love come from?

Is it nature that inspires you?

Being amongst family and/or friends?

Do you find yourself wishing you were constantly somewhere else?

Or bored?

I would like to believe that these are questions we must ask ourselves, daily to be honest with self to discover the truth of what it is that makes us happy, and brings us joy.

I spent a massive portion of my life (basically until I turned 28 years old) looking for love in the wrong places. Can you relate?

I looked in it in relationships, only to be heartbroken, betrayed, disappointed, hurt, angry, feeling used, abused, broken, and mentally wiped.

I looked in it in education. Trying to be something I wasn't, trying to impress others and myself. Looking for validation and acceptance from others, who really in the end didn't really care about anything but their own merit and success.

I looked for love in solitude. Traveled to beautiful countries like Thailand, Cambodia, Laos, Vietnam, Italy, France, and different states in the U.S.A. but always wishing I was sharing the experience with either a significant other, someone I loved like a best friend, or a group. Yet, when I was in one of those 'I wish moments' I then wished I was alone....

Why is that....

Well I discovered only after truly starting a relationship with Jesus, that He was the one I was longing for to be there the entire time. He's the one person I was denying myself to share the most intimate moments and adventures, where no criticism was given, rendered, or placed upon me to shame or guilt me. He was the one who could fill that void, or "hole", that made me feel whole. The love Jesus has for me is what I always tried to get from the outside in, when all along it was inside of me, so I could finally pour it out, and not feel empty or depleted.

I have always been sort of spiritual. Trying to think about the "bigger picture". It comes naturally to me. Small talk always felt foolish or a waste of time, and that's one thing I always felt, was that I didn't have enough time to live a full life. Jesus has allowed me to now feel the opposite. If anything were to make life here shorter than longer, I have lived a beautiful and blessed life. I am truly hoping you feel the same way.

xoxo,

Natacha Cash